Need to Vent

I started another blog on Wordpress with my husband, but I need this one to vent.

I am so unhappy, stressed, and depressed right now. I have so much right now weighing heavy on me. And my relationship with God is a primary source of all this....

No, God is not causing this. I'm just not spending time with Him so He can help me carry it all. I can't tell you the last time I consistently had a quiet time. I haven't been reading much of anything lately, much less the Bible.

I am in awe that God is continuing to bless our family.....it has to be because of my husband.

I feel like a huge failure as a person, a wife and a mom. I don't have any friends right now to be honest.....yeah, there are people at church....and others who "say" they are my friend...but no one close.

You know....those girlfriends you go to lunch with, or call every once and awhile....those are nonexistent right now. I miss that............

God, help me out of this pit..............please!

Family Research Council: Stay-at-home parents will not receive Obama's Child Tax Credit

Family Research Council: Stay-at-home parents will not receive Obama's Child Tax Credit

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Broken Wings?

Ok....I think I am going to train my 10 month old to be the next Etrade baby......but I might have missed his "window of opportunity" of age...haha!

Super Bowl???

Dish Network still does not offer local channels where we live....so we won't be watching the Super Bowl. My husband is not really into it.....and the kids aren't old enough to really get into it. I'd like to see it just because it is the 1st appearance for the Saints....but after some of the underhanded plays on Brett 2 weeks ago, I'm not sure I want to see them after all. :(

I'm sure many will be chowing down on Super Bowl snacks, not even thinking of what it is doing to them. They will mindlessly eat away hundreds of empty calories. I know this because I've done it over and over again. Maybe Dish Network is doing me a favor today. I won't be tempted at a Super Bowl Party! ;)

I am almost done reading Julie Hadden's new book "Fat Chance". She's the runner up of Biggest Loser, Season 4. She is a very strong Christian woman.....and a stay at home mom with 2 boys. (Do we see a connection here? That's me!!!) I really relate to her. I think we are actually close in age.

I pray I can succeed in getting healthy, fit, and slim.....just like her!

EA Sports Active

Here is a workout that I am using:

He has arrived............

Well, my husband made it home, thank goodness. Now my oldest has an awful cough and a low grade fever. I hope he gets better soon. I have never seen him this sick in a long, long time.

My husband is wanting to start a blog. However, his will be more of an emphasis on political views and issues. Me? I just talk about our life. It helps to express some words online....it is a "vent" sometimes for me.

I hope we have a great weekend!

He's headed home!

He's headed home....my husband, that is. He just called and is on a plane in Lagos, Nigeria...headed home from work.

It is hard sometimes having a husband who is gone every other month. But, we would not trade him time home for anything!

I have to get into gear though as a wife and mom. I am making some more goals......

- have house straightened up every day before bed.
- lose this weight
- spend quality time with my husband and boys
- spend more time with God, His Word, and in prayer

I can't do this alone, Lord. You have to help me! I know You will!!!!

Another great link

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/34723412/#storyContinued

Good clip!

Great clip of weight loss!
http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-US&brand=msnbc&vid=199a48a6-28bb-44cf-acbb-72b027c5f772

Mom Sheds Half Her Body Weight - NBC29

Mom Sheds Half Her Body Weight - NBC29

I love this! I hope SparkPeople can help me achieve this too!

What's all the pressure on Migdalia?

I don't get the network channels on my satellite service, so I have to keep up with the Biggest Loser online. From the clips from last night, it seems it has become a "drama" show. I understand that you are looking for ratings.....but encourage some of us peon's with some advice on exercise and nutrition. We may get 15 minute out of 2 hours....grrr!

And everyone on the boards are all over Migdalia......but with her "Where are they now" clip, she seems to be doing better. I think this may have been the jumpstart she needed. She seems to have found a wonderful gym to work out in with daycare. It has some trainers who are behind her and will let her go through this journey at her own pace.

TV has brought this "reality monster" that so many of us...and I said US....have gotten addicted to. I need to know how to lose this weight ....but I can't go on the ranch for weeks on end. My family needs me. NBC.....do something right please.....(ex. Jay/Conan spectacle). Get rid of so much drama (I know you have to have some) and give us some glimpse of the nutrition/exercise experience! PLEASE! :)

Dang....tripped again!

I made a major trip....started a blog last September...and thought I'd get serious about this weight loss thing...well....pooey on me!

Let's start again!

Here is to the New Newstartsahm! I've been looking at clips and episodes from the Biggest Loser..but I think my biggest drive is going to come from a fellow stay at home mom from Season 4...Julie Hadden. She is very emphatic on sharing her faith along with her journey to lose weight. I am reading her book now.

I have some goals:
1. Spend more time with God and in the Word.
2. Be a better wife.....pay attention to my husband more and encourage him. Be better with our house, finances, taking care of him!
3. Be a better mom...spend more time with my boys actively! read more with them....love on them more.
4. Get healthy! Eat better.....exercise more!
5. Be positive everyday! Stop being lazy and procrastinating!!!!!
6. Encourage my oldest son more in school, karate, and t ball.
7. Limit tv time for my family and get us more active!

I need everyone's help....God, my family, friends, and online friends.

Lord, this is it! If I don't do something now, I will die early, and my family will not reach their full potential. It is my fault and time to fess up......AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!

Lord, forgive me for not being your child the way I should be. Forgive me from being negative, lazy, and complacent! Forgive me for not being the wife, mom, friend, family member I can be. Forgive me for limiting Your power in my life!

Amen!!!!

New healthy journey

Well, I set this as my first day.....not so good. Got a little down after church and ate some hershey kisses....but I've been good since. Worked out some with the EA Sports Active. Only did 10 minutes...son wanted the Wii. Hopefully I can get back on in a little while. I am going to have to set the timer I guess for us to share. :)