new start

I have started a blog many times. They are lost in "blog heaven" out in cyberspace now. haha!

I am a new stay at home mom as of June. I have a wonderful husband who works overseas with an oil company in health and safety. I have two wonderful boys, age 4 and 6 months.

I am very overweight and lazy....there I said it.

I just watched some clips from Season 8 of the Biggest Loser. I don't get local channels where I live with our sattelite service...so I just have clips. :) But one clip has just hit me like a ton of bricks. One contestant named Abby......

She's from TX. (Where my husband is from) She is 35 and lost her husband and two children in a car crash in 06'. I don't think I could live through that. She is making a choice to go on with life. I'm not sure I would be able to survive.

I want to do more than survive. I make a choice today. I am going to make a goal to have a quiet time with God every day. I can't do all this without him. I will lose weight. I will get in shape. I will be God's vessel for someone everyday.

I spent the last few years down in the dumps....no confidence.....hurt....lost. No more! My husband deserves more. My children deserve more. I deserve more....but most of all....

MY GOD DESERVES MORE!!!!!!!!!

God, help me not to throw the rest of my life away!